Monday morning

[mary]

Dear Inception Fandom, please please tell me that somebody has written the story in which the superteam end up in Nash's dream for some handwavey plot reason, and Nash's dream is some weirdass parade shit and some dude giving him a medal.

Speaking of My Chemical Romance and Inception, yesterday I was like "almost everyone says 500 Days of Summer is total crapsticks, and so I have not seen it. But Marc Webb directed it! I am confused and conflicted!". And then Audrey pointed out that though he has directed many excellent things, Marc Webb was also responsible for the 'I Don't Love You' video. So I am not confused anymore at the idea that his movie might not be good. But on the other hand, it has Chloe Moretz and Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Tracy Phillips in it! I remain conflicted about whether to see it or not.

On Friday Audz and Erinna gave me a copy of Silent Hill: Shattered Memories as a present because I finished writing the Wolf House series. On Sunday I was talking to my mother on the phone and I ended up sobbing uncontrollably because I don't know how to cope with people giving me presents, because I am a hideous fraud who has somehow tricked people into liking me and it makes me upset when these people demonstrate a baseless fondness for me.

I mean, I got a royalty statement on the weekend, and this year so far I have sold 23 copies of book 1, and 29 copies each of books 2 and 3. That is an abject fucking failure by every standard ever devised. That doesn't deserve video games, that deserves cigarettes being put out in my eyes and kicks in the ribs with steel-toed boots. And what makes it even worse is when people say 'the print version will be easier to sell', because that just proves that they just. don't. see that I'm a failure and a fraud. Their idea of me is based on a lie and they give the lie video games and it is VERY UPSETTING.

Comments

[marcelo]

Mary, you wrote and got published a series of novels. That is an accomplishment of a highly nontrivial nature. Most aspiring writers don't get that far, ever.

I very much understand the self-disappointment and the self-loathing, but getting the books out is something that deserves celebration and respect, even if they didn't work out commercially.

[purple_smurf]

I have been rereading the Obernewtyn books, Miz Mary, which I started reading for the first time in 1995, when the third book in that series was published. It's still ongoing, and there have only been two books in that series released since then. Do not belittle yourself for managing to write five books in two years. I'm pretty sure us Obernewtyn fans would kill for that kind of productivity.

In short: we love you Mary! *only has Obernewtyn icon on LJ*

[chameleongirl]

We're never going to get hat last book, are we? ;_;

[purple_smurf]

I dream, but I do not hold my breath (I had to break it to the girls in Collins that The Stone Key wasn't the final book. They weren't happy).

[jennifergearing]

OMG SRSLY. I keep looking at my Obernewtyn books going "OMG LADY YOU STARTED THIS SERIES WHEN I WAS A TWO YEAR OLD. I AM NOW TWENTY SIX WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!"

[purple_smurf]

Sorry for hijacking your journal, Mary! But there was actually an Obernewtyn short story on Hannah Seraphim published in a Legends of Australian Fantasy collection and (having purchased and read it) I judge it as being Worth It.

But yeah. I thought the gap between Ashling and The Keeping Place was bad. I knew nothing. George R. R. Martin fans whining? I laugh at your misery!